Talk, talk, talk
I must confess, recently I’ve made a conscious effort to avoid blogging for a bit.
Not altogether, only when it comes to my personal issues and whatnot. And to compensate, and to hopefully distract you, I put up shitloads of pictures instead :) and a commercial break or two. Hehe, fell for it, didn’t you.
I do this not so much because of a writer’s block, quite the opposite actually.
There’s been a persistent storm of activity going on in my little head, disorganized thoughts which turn to a headache so very often, though I have actually been writing. Profusely.
My unpublished drafts and numerous Microsoft Word (during days when my internet connection decides to be a bitch) could prove that to you.
And they too shall remain unpublished because I know I’d probably regret it after my spurt of anger subsides.
But okay, here I am now.
Thinking, maybe finally publishing something real, anything real, could cure me of my persistent headache.
It’s a long shot, but hell why not.
#1. The break up.
Close friends of mine would know how (surprisingly) quick I can get back on my feet. Especially if in some twisted way I’m prepared, and it helps tremendously if I begin to see him in a different light. So I reckon there’s not much to worry there.
And then there are these new revelations I find post-break up.
“Okay I didn’t want to say anything at first, but there’s something you need to know, Cyn…“
I got that statement from 10 different people. All with 10 different endings.
Most of the time I just smile and shake my head.
My answer?
Of course I saw it. But against my better judgment, I chose to look away.
:) so much for giving one the ultimate benefit of the doubt.
And revelations about the other party? Oof, brutal. But you can’t blame me for feeling a glint of delight whenever people talk talk talk ;)
I could go on and write out all the gory little details, which would henceforth make this post a hell more interesting read, and god knows one probably deserves it, and being childish with a vengeance is gonna be damn fun :p
But I won’t. Because I’m all for boring cryptic reads. :)
#2. The change.
I’ve spent a lifetime and a half thinking what should I do with my hair.
A short disastrous episode with me and short hair back in high school left me decided that I simply cannot pull it off T___T something about my round face shape
So as the trends changed over the years, we’ve had the bangs, the bob, the Halle Berry pixie cut, Rihanna rockin’ short hair and many others, I loyally stood by my long locks, thinking,
“Do I really wanna look trendy yet fugly with short hair.”
But being a person who gets bored easily, I got bored of my long hair eons ago. Loved it, just got terribly bored. But I never had the guts to make the cut.
Until now.
And might I say it, my god I think I love it :)
Me & Mingshen before heading out one night
And to be honest, I’m thinking of going shorter next round. Hmm.
Mmm, change feels good.
Currently listening to: Death Cab For Cutie – Brothers on a Hotel Bed
August 3rd, 2008 at 12:49 pm
hi there. u looked really gorgeous in that cut. was wondering if you could let me know where did u cut it from? i’ve always had these disastrous hair cutsss… =(
Thx, chloe.
August 3rd, 2008 at 12:58 pm
i like your haircut too! and good on you for leaving him. he’s not worth it
August 3rd, 2008 at 2:04 pm
plz don cut shorter next time now jus nice. coz ur face is round like ball u shuld leave some hair to cover kekekeke
August 3rd, 2008 at 4:18 pm
cyn… that cut nice edi… no need cut shorter la…
see u friday. we take pics togetha k?
tra la la…
baby xxx
August 3rd, 2008 at 4:18 pm
cyn… that cut nice edi… no need cut shorter la…
see u friday. we take pics togetha k?
tra la la…
baby xxx
August 3rd, 2008 at 5:24 pm
Hey there….
Haircuts i reckon define one’s mood and personality. Go with what you feel like.
Re: #1….10 different statements with 10 different endings…pretty inconsistent if you think about it. Hope things work out for you and the right people are with you. I’ve been in a similar situation before and more often than not, people love a good story.
August 3rd, 2008 at 5:52 pm
keep your faith. hold your head up high. because i know you could.
cheers ;)
August 3rd, 2008 at 6:09 pm
i could be your 11th person to add to your collection of statements, but you’ve probably heard it all. good on you for leaving the bachelor
August 3rd, 2008 at 7:02 pm
YOU CUT UR HAIR?!?!?!?! WHY?! WHY? WHYYYYYY?!?!?!?!
BAD SHAPE!! ITS OVER!
August 3rd, 2008 at 7:08 pm
10 different statements but how many were true? As far as i know, brian did not cheated on u. But i’m sure there were ppl telling u that too its just that u find it hard to believe. You believe that brian cheated on u because u have no faith in him in the first place.
Ppl talk about what they see, not about what they know. They like to make assumption like they know it all.
After all, i still thinks that the bachelor is the one to blame, not the womens who suffered from his poor way of dealing with his own relationship. If u ever wanna point the finger, point it to him
August 3rd, 2008 at 7:33 pm
sorry to hear what happen :( as long as you’re happy! and btw i like the new hair, so fresh!
-pat
August 3rd, 2008 at 8:22 pm
hey babe! first time commenting after so long. :D
anyhoos you looked really good with your new haircut! :)
and hello your face is not round k! look at mine -___-
August 4th, 2008 at 4:37 am
i somehow knew you would end up breaking up. now it happened. but it doesn’t mean it’s a bad thing. life moves on eh.
August 4th, 2008 at 4:50 am
love the short hair. u look pretty diff with short hair @.@…
but still, its pretty nice. Though i like looking at your long flowy hair.
About the ‘break up’, you handle it well. You’ll be just alright. ^^
August 4th, 2008 at 6:47 am
just reallyyyyy curious, did he really cheat on you? how did you find out? because i was in the same position before.
August 4th, 2008 at 7:06 am
My dear, glad to hear that you’re taking a positive outlook on the word “change”. Looking absolutely gorgeous as usual, Melbourne misses you already.
Love,
Faye.
August 4th, 2008 at 8:13 am
awesome hair cut :)
and sorry to hear about the break up.. but i’m sure mr right is out there somewhere :) as cliche as that sounds :P
August 4th, 2008 at 9:27 am
you really rock the haircut! your hairstylist deserves high praises :)
August 4th, 2008 at 9:51 am
i love ur new hair cut babe… like wat other ppl commented.. but i mean it.. hugs dear : )
love love
August 4th, 2008 at 9:55 am
how does it feel being dumped for someone prettier and with far more personality?
August 4th, 2008 at 11:23 am
hey nice hairstyle, but looks like ur friend tzeching’s. did you copy it of hers?
August 4th, 2008 at 11:24 am
off* i mean
August 4th, 2008 at 11:45 am
to anonymous: by prettier with personality, you mean slutty wannabe? please la, cynthia’s got more class than that underaged ho. and last i checked she did the dumping, not him
August 4th, 2008 at 12:51 pm
to all: thanks :) kind words and all
chloe: been going to Antico Uptown for the past year. look for Edmund, he's fantastic!
baby: hehe aye, wanna go short, go short all the way kan? ;) see you friday xo
handsome: HAHA why do you remind me of a certain tim-tams i met in australia…
cass: yalah where have u been, wtf. :) still flying, my dear?
agnes: long flowy hair is nice too but that one can grow it long again another time :)
Faye: boo, i love youu i mish you terribly too <3 btw Debbie says she went to Kane's new house (your new house) and it looks like something out of MTV cribs :p
anonymous: tzeching? no dear, i went to my hairstylist with no ideas at all, just said "chop em off please"
August 4th, 2008 at 12:59 pm
Hey dun mean to divert the limelight away from you but ur friend ming shen actually looks quite hot!
How come we dun get more pictures of her?
August 4th, 2008 at 1:31 pm
EH EH I also go to Edmund from Antico but I think his name is not spelled Edmund but like Edman or something I forget :P I went there just before I left Msia again and this time he wasn’t there and some other biatch cut my hair and I hated it :( The rest of my family likes Jack though.. the Indian stylist.
Bahaha my house is nice indeed. Or at least much better than the little hole I currently reside in! :(
Oh oh ps: with regards to the next post, congratulations babe, degree holder wooh wooh!
Love,
Faye.
August 4th, 2008 at 2:34 pm
to observer> teehee, dude you crack me up.. how sure are you she's a ho? what's ho by the way? are you trying to say "whore"? u aint observant enough as an observer, pal because you know nothing bout your so-called-ho.. oh, and you know what? cynthia dumped the bachelor too, does that makes cynthia a "ho" too my friend?
and for that shithole anonymous who dissed cyn. Lemme guess, are you one of those cyn's loser ex-boyfriends? or you can't get a hold on that beautiful face cuz u're fat and ugly or you are those ugly bitches jealous of cynthia?
either way, you have no right to compare cynthia and "the other girl" because they are both pretty and possessed totally different personality.
Jeee, get over it people. Cynthia, you pun satu.. Do you know how much drama u have created? Why not just keep ur personal issues for ur own? I know it's hard to get over the break up as easy as snapping fingers. but come on, this is the worldwideweb, everyone gets to read it. Are u happy when there are ppl arguing because of you? Are u happy?
I still blame brian for all this. The coward shithole thought he's good looking and could get whatever women he wants.
August 4th, 2008 at 3:25 pm
Hope you’re doing all well in whatever situation you’re facing right now. It doesn’t even matter who’s wrong or right. I’m sure everything happens for a reason.
And by the way, love your new hair. Reminds me of what I did soon after something happened. Guess sometimes all we need is change.Heehe.
Take Care
*hugs*
August 4th, 2008 at 4:18 pm
you know what???, As far as i know, no one is to blame. Break ups happen every minute of every hour and that’s just the way it is and is going to be even if its 100000000 years from now. Us, as people who are suffering from this ordeal just have to suck it up sometimes and just deal with it one way or the other. I know not well of cynthia but all i know is the bachelor DID NOT cheat. He would not have done such a thing because he is a great guy and even the third party(“ho”) would not have allowed it. Being bitter on upset is understandable but not till the extent of posting it for the world to see, that’s just plain foolish. Karma will always, ALWAYS bite you back in the ass.
August 4th, 2008 at 5:55 pm
people who got no stones to sign in with their name, dont think that ur comments have anymore weight then “anonymous”
August 4th, 2008 at 6:11 pm
people who got no stones to sign in with their LAST NAMES, don’t think your comments have anymore obesity then “anonymous”.
CAN’T WE ALL JUST GET ALONG???
August 4th, 2008 at 6:42 pm
I recommend listening to
“Before He Cheats”
by Carrie Underwood.
Makes you feel better,I swear
August 4th, 2008 at 6:42 pm
I recommend listening to
“Before He Cheats”
by Carrie Underwood.
Makes you feel better,I swear
August 5th, 2008 at 2:13 pm
Hey Cynthia! Am a silent reader for quite some time now…love the new hairdo. You’re so brave compared to me haha.
And about the break up, you’re handling it pretty well i must say. You go girl! Hope you’re doing just fine there.
Hugs.
August 5th, 2008 at 4:03 pm
cynthia..
so you decided to chop em off after asking me and chris over lunch about long short long short long short. *giggles*
hoho yess change is good! don’t do now, then wait til you’re 50? no way yo. hoho.
our excuse of doing the drastic hurr.. :)
see you in class.
August 5th, 2008 at 4:44 pm
its funny, i actually liked brian, but 9 out of 10 people never had anything nice to say about him.
i always thought he should have been given a chance.
but KL is small, word gets around.
so i was quite disappointed to be proven that the numbers held some weight.
thia’s my friend and she has my backing!
you’re doing great =)
August 5th, 2008 at 7:48 pm
1 cm for EVERY month ar! dun forget!!!
August 6th, 2008 at 8:43 am
johnjohn: She is hot! :p and believe it or not she's even busier than i am sometimes, so hard to catch her lol.
Faye: hahaha who biatch cut your hair and you dont like it? what does your hair look like now? :p And i wanted to try Jack too, but ive been following Edmund/Edman all this time, i feel like im cheating on him if i go with Jack now LOL. but so far Edmund keeps me happy LOL
banana & anonymous: i dont intend to reply any comments on the breakup, but you seem most upset lol. i put extra care when writing that short post, i just needed to vent a little but i made SURE i didnt reveal any details "for the world to see". so no, i did not create no drama, if people want to speculate then by all means.
eudora: thanks :) yea i figured it was time for a change.
carmen khong: HAHA amen to that! such an angry song
gwencws: thanks love.
julie ann: HAHA yea, it's high time i made that change, its way overdued anyway.
@ldo: i love you daa <3
handsome a.k.a TIMTAMS: im so clever i figured you out ;p Eh doesn that mean i cant even trim my hair, what if i get split ends and i need a trim, roarr.
August 7th, 2008 at 9:01 am
=.=
………..
thia *sigh*
…………………..
drama junkies
August 12th, 2008 at 8:21 pm
im sorry for everything. hope we can still be friends.
August 13th, 2008 at 1:57 am
Brian is known to be a cheater from day 1, its unfortunate that you only find out about it now…
August 13th, 2008 at 10:16 am
stupidity comes about when one is blinded by love and desperation
August 19th, 2008 at 4:01 am
Everything will be alright…..and it’s true!